Blessings

Looking at the shattered pieces, somewhat everything just falls in place as if they are controlled by some kind of invisible power. 

To lead a life without worries is the greatest gift. Free your mind to free yourself.

Blogging helps me to inspire

What i like about blogging is, i can write things which are not meant to be told. This shall be a little relaxation corner for me to reflect, inspire and provide relief to the best of my ability. 

I don't mind if no one reads them so long there is a purpose of doing it. =)

Tonight i am feeling tired, not the kind of tired when one doesn't get enough sleep! lol. However, let's not talk about my feelings. The main topic is how to hang on there amidst the struggling and still enjoy life with a smile. ;) 

When you feel your life is cursed, don't be. 

When you feel no one is there and you are lonely, don't be. 

When you feel the uncertainties of life freak you out, don't be. 

When you feel weak and to the point of giving up, don't be. 

When you feel your world is filled with hatred, don't be. 

When you feel utterly depressed, hopeless and despair, don't be. 

Try to look deeper within yourself and you will find the answer. Despite how cb the world is, (yes! i am using the word chee-bye) love oversees all flaws, provides comfort and brews courage! 

Love the cbs and adore the non-cbs. Heh eh. 

Trust love and you will never go wrong. Halloween is just around the corner! Wee ~ Have a great weekend ahead. :D 

Live the life you wanna be and not others want you to be ;)

It's not what happens that matter. 

The one fucking big pond can be as big as the entire ocean. The same one fucking big pond can also be as pathetic as what it seems to be. Heh eh. 

In short, does it really matter? No. 

K bye! :D 

Free your mind and free yourself

In case you wonder i have abandoned my blog, i better squeeze out something to write! 

Between us and to be honest, there is a lot of cursing and swearing in Facebook that i decided to switch over for some much appreciated tranquility. At least, i am in control and the content is written by me. No swearing and cursing, just some stuff i wish to share. Heh eh. 

Be nice to yourself, free your mind from distractions and do not dwell for it is the root of unhappiness and sufferings. Free your mind and escape the entrapment. This shall be the place you take charge of your own train of thoughts, gently observe how they affect your emotional state and soon they will leave. 

I am still learning, you too! 

Special word for my sweetheart readers

I know my blog is dying a slow death with increasingly less interesting stuff. 

Remember when you are struggling hard and suffering, you are not alone. I am suffering too! LOL! 

Now let's not compare and be glad that you are still alive to read my crap! :D 

Sinking into the vibes of old memory

I am falling in love with the lead singer of Soda Green! Falling in love with his gentle and harmonious voice that i could literally feel the caressing on my face with his melody. Heh eh. 

Talented. 

Looking forward

All will be well. :D 

Have a great weekend ahead! 

Reason being

My BFF is going to receive his Gohonzon soon and i am happy for him. ('',)

The problem with me is i am a problem child and I've not been practising my daimoku and lotus sutra for a bloody long time.

Since young, i always had this feeling that Dai Gohonzon is very fierce. I reckon i need some subtle changes in my life that i try not to touch Lotus Sutra yet when i have other more mellow sutras to turn to. Unless necessary. Untold of, it's been somewhat under my personal classification, a forbidden mantra. LOL! 

Nonetheless, my faith remains strong with Lotus Sutra and i will always turn to the Dai Gohonzon if something major occurs. For example, when my mum was dying in ICU and the situation seemed totally helpless.

Tonight, i am going to plough in an hour chanting to recharge the dying battery within and fight karma and turn the table around. Despite the uncertainty, i've learnt since i was four that with the Lotus Sutra, i need not be afraid of anything. 

"Let troubles come on our heads, rather than on the teachers of the Law; neither yakshas, nor hungry ghosts...; nor fevers, whether for a single day, or quotidian, or tertian, or quartan, or weekly, or unremitting fevers; whether in male form, or female form, or form of youth, or form of a maiden, even in dreams shall ever cause distress. Whereupon before the Buddha they spoke thus in verse:

"Whoever resists our spell
And troubles a preacher,
May his head be split in seven
Like an arjaka sprout;
May his doom be that of a parricide,
His retribution that of an oil-expresser
Or a deceiver with [false] measures and weights,
Or of Devadatta who brought schism into the Samgha;
He who offends these teachers of the Law,
Such shall be his retribution."

After these female rakshasas had uttered this stanza, they addressed the Buddha, saying: "World-honoured One! We ourselves will also protect those who receive and keep, read and recite, and practice this sutra, and give them ease of mind, freedom from corroding care and from all poisons."

The Buddha addressed the rakshasa women: "Good, good! Even if you are only able to protect those who receive and keep the name of the Law-Flower, your happiness will be beyond calculation; how much more if you protect those who perfectly receive, keep, and pay homage to the sutra! You and your followers should protect such teachers of the Law as these."

The Lotus Sutra, Dharanis Chapter 26

漫长的冬季

紫雨寒风起 

浪水猛涨潮 

波浪滚滚犯

西北刮大风

梁小明命苦

撑着一把伞

一步一脚印

漫步人生路 

到最终还是我一个人的 “带己”

一个人流奶水扛下这一大堆粪

不好玩 不好玩 不好玩

不好玩 不好玩 不好玩
不好玩 不好玩 不好玩

大风吹 大风吹 大风吹 

大风吹 大风吹 大风吹

哇塞！好大的风！

揭谛揭谛 波罗揭谛
波罗僧揭谛 菩提娑婆诃 x 3 

风不动

是心动

眼内有尘三界窄，心头无事一床宽. 

Maybe i think too much.

I wonder would i suffer the same fate as my dad? LOL! 

He died due to acute pulmonary oedema with underlying ischaemic heart disease which led to cardiac arrest. 

We all know that certain medical abnormalities are known to be hereditary. It means it runs in the genes and can be passed down from generation to generation. 

When i was younger, i was diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse. Subsequently, at the later part of my life, the heart murmurs disappeared as if the heart could heal on its own. Confused. I had echocardiograms done by two independent hospitals: SGH AND CGH. Both the institutions had the same clinical diagnosis that the MVP is indeed gone for good. 

Anyway, i have an appointment with a Cardiologist at Mt Elizabeth next month for an independent assessment. Hopefully, everything been well and fine. 

I asked myself, "What if it comes back?" No. I am not a least bit afraid. Apparently, i feel i am almost there to NIRVANA. Unfazed by the world's whatever. Switch off. Good night! 

In patients with mitral valve prolapse, the mitral apparatus (valve leaflets and chordae) becomes affected by a process called myxomatous degeneration. In myxomatous degeneration, the structural protein collagen forms abnormally and causes thickening, enlargement, and redundancy of the leaflets and chordae. When the ventricles contract, the redundant leaflets prolapse (flop backwards) into the left atrium, sometimes allowing leakage of blood through the valve opening (mitral regurgitation). When severe, mitral regurgitation can lead to heart failure and abnormal heart rhythms. Most patients are totally unaware of the prolapsing of the mitral valve. Others may experience a number of symptoms discussed below.

Most people with mitral valve prolapse have no symptoms, however, those who do commonly complain of symptoms such as fatigue, palpitations, chest pain, anxiety, and migraine headaches.